After the rain comes the sun (#046)

Things are slowly starting to get better !

Day events:

  • Finally got a decent amount of sleep (something like 8.5 hours? I was a bit groggy in the morning, but was energetic afterwards).
  • Did absolutely nothing productive at work (except create a coding assignment for T).
  • Got to Facetime a little bit with Miss JB (I just realized today that it's only been a week hahahha).
  • Watched a few episodes of Paripi Koumei (man, that shit is good).
  • CST Training (yess, my fucking legs are sore af right now and it feels so good. No I'm not a masochist, but I haven't felt this in a while and I love it. Also wanted to puke when I got home, the training was not THAT intense, but I really pushed myself LOL).
  • Smoothie making and a bit of quality time with the broski (I'll certainly enjoy my time with him as my roommate even though it'll only be 6 months).

Thought of the day:

Things are starting to get better.

Slowly, but surely.

It's REALLY funny because my life seems to be getting better after I did something very out of character on Monday night right before going to bed (but it's a secret for now).

On one front, I was very uncertain where I was heading with my badminton training and today I got a really good training. It wasn't really the technical aspect even though that's what I was looking forward to the most, it was more about the intensity that I had during the training.

I feel like when I'm training with friends, it's harder to really go hard. I don't know why, maybe I don't want to be too serious and enjoy being light-hearted around people I like. Anyway, this wasn't the case today.

We did some very simple drills and a team singles at the end, but because I was "giving it my all", I really exerted myself to the point where my legs are now feeling super sore. A feeling I hadn't had in forever.

So I'm happy about that.

Are ALL trainings going to be like this? Probably not, but one is better than none :)

Next up... career wise !

As I've mentioned in my recent posts, I always felt like I would better and thrive in a non-technical role, but the thing that was stopping me were my old beliefs about technical vs non-technical people.

But then, and I know this is going to sound very very stupid, I started watching Paripi Koumei.

Yes ! A fucking anime. I'm not going to explain the whole plot, but basically, it's this one guy Zhuge Liang aka Kongming, a tactician from The Three Kingdoms Era who gets reincarnated in the modern era and makes it his goal to help this singer (Eiko) reach her goals.

And after watching a couple episodes, I was like... wow Kongming is such a badass. And then I realized that Kongming was not technical at all. He is, in fact, the contrary of technical. Most of the tactics he uses always require the help of other people and he's just the mastermind behind all of it.

I'm not saying that this 100% made me change my mind, but it certainly helped. Seeing how Kongming, even if only in a fictitious setting, could actually help people and create positive change in his world without needing to be the person doing the work was inspiring. And it actually led me to another realization.

Something that I've told other people in the past, but failed to apply in my own life.

At the end of the day, we were all put on this earth with certain gifts and talents and the way that we, as individuals, can create the most impact with our lives is to lean into those no matter what they are. Because yes, I might be a decent coder or a decent technical person and by staying on this path, I might create a certain tangible impact. However, the impact created by something I was not that good at and don't even like can only pale in comparison to the impact I can create by using my gifts, strengths and doing something I truly love. Or at least, that's how I see it now.

It's no longer about what is the most useful or the most "in-demand" in the world. It's about what makes ME the most useful to the world. How can I best use myself to serve this world. And then, I can only hope that by serving the world, the world will take care of me (make a living, etc.).

And final thing, I might have found the next side thing I want to do. I've actually wanted to do it for a while, but never pulled the trigger. Maybe it's time that I stop over thinking it and start doing it.

Exciting things ahead, hopefully !

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