More like water (#074)

Just be more adaptable Nijahusa !!

Day events:

  • Woke up angry and pitiful towards the construction guy (even though he's only doing his job, but ughhh, I hate him).
  • Decided to be a better person and adapt myself (more on this in the thought of the day).
  • Made my plan for the day and followed it like a champ.
  • Had a religious conversation with one of my coworkers that ended up helping her rekindle her faith (that's fucking craaaaaaaazy).
  • 100% positive energy conversation with JB that truly made me feel 10/10 energy wise, I can't even describe in this little section how much the convo made me feel like a million bucks.
  • Had one of my greatest CST practices ever (obviously after that positive interaction, BUT my coach also told me what to work and it was something I was asking the badminton gang today and I soon as as I started to apply it, I saw immediate results. God working is goddamn magic again !! RETURN TO THE MIDDLE FASTER)

The grateful section:

  1. Grateful to have a roof over my head. It's raining cats and dogs outside and boy do I not want to be outside right now or have no place to call home.
  2. Grateful to have a bias towards positive thinking (even though I sometimes have my negative spirals).
  3. I think after the whole conversation we had, I find it appropriate to put this here today. Grateful to have JB in my life and can only thank God for it.

Thought of the day:

This morning, I woke up really pissed.

At 7:30am, the construction guy started moving his truck, which emits an awfully acute noise that literally cannot be drowned out except by blasting music through my noise cancelling headphones.

I've tried 3 different pairs of ear plugs and all of them seem to hurt my ear.

The headphones might be a temporary solution, but because I'm a moving sleeper (aka side sleeper + back sleeper), it makes it extremely hard for my to get good quality sleep if I only lay on my back.

Anyway, I was not happy this morning.

I managed to sleep an extra maybe 30 minutes more, but needless to say, I was still tired this morning.

I just remember having all these nasty, petty thoughts.

I imagined getting some cold water and splashing it on him and then this would basically spiral into a petty battle between him and me.

I imagined myself getting out of head, heading downstairs and giving him a mouth foul saying how he didn't have respect for people who were trying to sleep.

I imagined myself telling the woman who rented us the apartment that I won't be paying this month because she had told us that the construction would be done when we moved in, which is clearly not the case.

I was having all these negative thoughts early in the morning and I did not like it.

Not for myself, not for the world, not for the people involved.

Everyone was simply doing their jobs and I was being an asshole in my head.

I didn't want to be this petty person.

Don't get me wrong, sleep is extremely important to me.

It's what keeps me energetic, positive, makes my body recover from my workouts and overall, just makes me feel good physically and mentally.

So don't fuck with my sleep.

However, at the same time, I also realized that I had become extremely comfortable in my routine.

I thought to myself "7:30am is actually not that early. Obviously if he'd wake me up at 4-5-6am, that'd be a different story, but 7:30am is actually a decent time to wake up."

But then, I started thinking of how I'd have to change my schedule and that instead of writing at night, I'd have to write during the day or make sure that I eat my post-workout meal right after my workout instead of when I got back to the apartment.

I was being fearful of change.

And because I want to be someone who is adaptable, who is comfortable with change, I decided that I'll try it.

At least, until the construction guy is done, which should be in less than a month hopefully.

So today, I'm writing this at 5pm right after work, I'll bring a protein shake with me at practice with a protein bar or some carbs and my goal is to sleep at/before 12am tonight.

Let me leave you with the famous Bruce Lee quote:

"Empty your mind.
Be formless, shapeless, like water.
You put water into a cup, it becomes the cup.
You put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle.
You put it into a teapot, it becomes the teapot.
Now water can flow or it can crash.
Be water, my friend."

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