My new-old focuses (#107)

Day highlights:

  • Little scuffle in the morning with the staff of Motel Le Sabre.
  • Fun jam x freestyle x talking about badminton on beat in the car on the way back.
  • Took a nap with JB and had a little vulnerable moment (JB made me feel safe and reassured me like the fucking boss she is, I appreciate it).
  • Went to my mom's to eat some good pho gà.
  • Watched the broski play volleyball (made me want to jump higher for badminton).

The grateful section:

  • I am extremely grateful to be in the position to have awesome weekends like these. Results wise, it was not what I wanted, but the whole trip was wonderful, being with friends, laughing, being silly, having fun, etc. To many more in the future !

Thought of the day:

I remember across all the years I was trying to find my purpose, passion and whatnot.

There's always this one advice that constantly came up time and time again.

It was to think about what we used to do when we were kids because that's what we really liked to do.

Before all the responsibilities of being an adult kicked in, our child-self would simply do whatever they liked doing without any regards to the "bigger picture" or the purpose of things.

I always hated when people told me that.

All I could find in my childhood activities is playing video games, hanging out with friends, watching shows, etc.

All the things a "normal" child would do.

There were no signs of coding, doing business-y things or all that "useful" crap.

However, there was one big thing that I've done throughout my whole life.

It was always by my side and I guess it was so close to me that I didn't think anything of it.

Kinda like in those cheesy teen rom-coms where the main character always hangs out with someone whom they neglect while they chase their love interest only to realize at the end of the movie that the love of their life was that first person who was always with them.

That, for me , during my childhood years, was sports (and working out).

My favourite class in elementary, highschool and cegep have always been physical education.

I love moving my body, I love being active, I love getting stronger, faster, more flexible, etc.

I guess this whole time because I could not see how I could make a living out of this, I've always just shoved it in the corner of my mind as something I always did, but never took it "seriously".

Until now that is.

I still don't know what the hell to do in terms of money and career and all that shit.

For now, working at SSENSE makes enough money for me to live comfortably while supporting all the things I love doing.

I don't even want to think about that, I'll just go with the flow. If I get a promotion, great, I'll stay, if not, I might apply to some other job that pays more, I don't know and, honestly, I don't really care.

My focus is on three things.

One. Badminton. I want to get better for sure.

Two. Fitness. I want my body to be the best it looked and stronger, healthier, more flexible.

Three. Nutrition. It's such a big factor when it comes to health & fitness. Plus I love eating. I want to explore more cooking healthy & delicious meals.

What will this lead to?

I don't know, but I know the less I think about it, the better it is for my mental health.

So I'll just led God guide me.

I know for sure the first two make me happy and we'll see for the third one.

As long as I'm happy and I'm working on something (getting better at badminton + fitness stuff), then I'm good.

Good night.

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